Friday, February 21, 2014

Trying to Heal

Grief is a strange beast.  Sometimes it sleeps inside you, and you think that you are safe from it.  Then suddenly it awakens and tears at your insides  until you think it will consume you.  Our baby died just 17 days ago.  And it seems that each day there is a task I must complete that takes me one step further along my journey to healing.

I have to believe that I am on a journey to healing.  I have to believe that "healing" is my end destination. Otherwise this pain will be all the more unbearable.  Our most recent task on this journey was to choose Hazel's head stone.  We have approved the image and sent for it.  I am anxious to see it placed where it belongs, guarding my baby's resting spot.

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Sweet Baby Hazel

Tuesdays are difficult to get through now.  Two weeks ago today our sweet baby girl both came and went. She only lived for about eight painful hours.  I don't yet have the strength to tell you her story.  Our story.  

We have been inundated with love and support from our friends and family.  I'm very grateful for that.  It doesn't take my pain away, or bring my baby back.  But we know we are not alone in our suffering.

Sweet dreams, baby Hazel.  Mommy loves you.